Dear Wednesday,
It was one year ago around this time that we got rid of my dog Charlie. I miss him so much and could really use him during all of this. He use to be my best friend. Maybe thats why i want another dog....maybe thats also why i wont get close to a dog. I still cry over missing Charlie. Anyway, ive been out of it lately. Trying to ignore my feelings. I dont want to do anything except listen to the same music over and over. I dont wanna talk i dont wanna breath i dont wanna be me, i just want the world to pause for a minute. I need to think a lot of stuff through. Today i go see my councilor, which is really good, but i still dont want to go to school. I wish there was a way i could just stay home.... The new pills ive been taking have made my stomach hurt at random times but im not gonna tell anyone. They are suppose to work mentally so thats all i care about. Your probably thinking why i havent gotten to the point of this yet and to be truthful i dont know if you should know whats going on.
Part Two:
I saw Martha. She thinks my medicine is working. Yeah, okay. But I was able to get everything off my chest and she gave me some advice. And honestly, I feel better, but I feel the same.
So Tuesday my brother went to court to try to get custody of his daughter, he didnt, but he gets to see her every other weekend. (: And over the weekend my brother James and I got into an argument.....It didnt end well......For me.
But no matter what I just need to get over the past (which is exactly what it is). Okay, okay, that's what I say whenever I'm really hurt emotionally or mentally but I dont know, why should I keep this over my head? Plus all bruises are healing so I guess that's good.
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