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Dear Thursday,

I hate you! I don't like using that word but shit dude did you HAVE to be that HARD on me!? Don't you know I'm recovery from depression? 


So I wake up today and I am yet again sooo tired, but then my stomach starts hurting and I just want to get sick, but I dont. So I get ready for school and leave. (I wore my tan pants since laundry needs to be done, but it hasnt yet) then when I get to 5th period (which is basically first period of the day) and my stomach starts yelling at me! I would say growling but I wasn't hungry (granted that I hadnt ate yet) Then in 6th period we are still doing our drawings, although we are learning to draw for this big project we are doing soon, its really boring. So I'm not even trying. Sorry to say that :/


So then in the beginning of lunch I ate my brownie I brought and then I went and got nachos. I just didn't want them. I had to stop eating them because I felt like I wanted to get sick again :(


Then I went to algebra. Usually I would have put a frown face, but I have an 87 in that class! See I know some of you are smart and have better grades then that, but considering I had a 77 last semester, I consider this REALLY good. :)


Then World Geography. This was when my day came to the crushing worst part (don't worry it wasn't that bad, it just hurt me a lot emotionally). The class wouldn't shut up, so Mrs.Winzeler was pissed about that, plus she is sick, plus we've been talking about The Cold War since school started and we should be past this already, and we arent. We REALLY are interested in the Cold War, but since she is leaving school for a week and three days she doesnt have enough time to cover all of our questions and she gets irritated easily, so we finally get on topic, and of course, off topic. Then some girl starts arguing with Mrs.Winzeler about drafted into war, and Mrs. Winzeler gets mad, then upset. She tells us how WE are taking HER away from her BABY girl. At first we was just mad they we are still talking about the Cold War but then she almost started crying talking about how her daughter just learned to say "uh-oh" and how to clap her hands. Then she said that all she wants to do tonight is go home and drop things, say "uh oh" and clap her hands with her daughter, instead of rearranging our schedule so we can finish the Cold War and what we are moving onto next within the next couple of weeks. Thankfully, class was almost over. But THEN, she tells us to get out a piece of paper and assigns us homework. WTF! Its not just the homework part but as she was assigning it she said something about how we are making her SUFFER so she will make US suffer! Um, excuse, WHAT!?


So the bell rings for school to end and as I'm walking down the hall all I want to do is cry, and die. It was such a horrible day. And still, I am having a horrible day. Mixed with good.


So I get on the bus, and Paul (he's the bus monitor/ bodyguard) hands me a little kids ring box (you know, the ones kids get for 50 cents....with the plastic rings in it or tattoos) I looked inside of it and I see Patrick (Spongebob's best friend) and I just think that was really nice of him :) This morning he noticed I wasnt wearing my Spongebob hat (Ive only worn it once, but when I did him and I had a conversation about our nieces and how they love Spongebob) So that put me into a good mood. 


Well I kinda good mood because I still feel sad/depressed about the whole World Geography thing :/