1-7-11

Dear Friday,

I'm depressed. The song Only One by Alex Band, is making me depressed. I keep chanting "tears, tears, tears, tears, tears," in my head. Im not meaning to, its just happening.
The whole thing with my doctor still makes me mad. But I guess since I survived it shows just how strong I am.
Im not sure why Ive been so depressed lately, i just cant seem to keep my mind on anything, and writing this is REALLY hard. I will try to tell you how my days have been, I just dont know.
Thursday I went back to school and not much happened. I havent done any of my homework, my teachers arent really mad but they will be soon if I dont clean up my act.
Im just trying to figure things out. I dont know how to describe it anymore then that. Im trying to figure myself out and its messing up with my thinking process and emotions.
Then today I woke up and got ready for school, went to school, in child development my group and I spent almost 45minutes thinking of a slogan for a non-skid mat. (My favorite one was "Don't kill your kid!" Because that would get their attentions [parents] but that was harsh so we went with something about ruba-dub-dub)
In 8th period we took a test, Nick helped me, of course, without knowing it lol
Then I started reading my book The Shack. Which in the beginning I thought was stupid but now I am really into it!
Then school ended. Woop. I hate school, but i hate my house. Life just sucks.


Well I'm not sure what anyone wants from me, where I am going with this, or if anyone cares that I am writing this, so until I find out some answers, I'm going to stop writing (soon) and go to sleep. 






You might wander why I am starting a blog and the simple answer is: When I am gone, I want people to learn from me. Life moves on, with or without you. Life, doesnt care. If you die, the whole world isnt going to stop. Just about 10 people are going to be really upset for a couple of months, maybe a couple of years. But they will move on, just like you should have.