Dear Monday,
Your ending. I wont see you for another week. Well, all good things must come to an end, of course so better things can come! :)
I went to see Martha today and I was really hyper and calmed down by the visit. She made me realize things will be okay.
Plus I got my package Daniel sent me, finally :) It had a necklace, a bracelet, a watch (which I loooovvvvvveeeeee), a memory card, and CD's.
Im gonna send Daniel a letter, I feel bad that I havent sent him anything and he's already sent me two packages.
School is tomorrow. I still dont want to go. No one understands. I cant explain it to them. If I tell them and its not a good enough reason to get out then I just feel worse because now they have a piece of me, but of course it means if I dont tell them I dont have the chance of getting out. So I suffer. I think thats partly why Im depressed.
I keep hoping if I write the truth on here that Ill get more help, but I cant be all that honest because Im afraid people will get mad at me :/
Everything breaks my heart......Maybe I am crazy?
Ha, I wander if I should go to a mental hospital?
Ugh I wish life wasnt so complicated.
I go see my doctor on Wednesday, she will probably put me on pills. Im gonna die if she puts me on the same ones, they didnt work, and they made me suicidal. Martha doesnt understand that. I need to get out of my head. I need to get away from here. Learn a new life. A happy life, a calm life.
I need to be around people who support and love me. Not people who only worry about themselves, but I guess Im doing the same. I have enough love to go around, to bad I'm shy. To bad I was shunned all my life and now its paying its toll.
I will survive, I think.
Goodnight, Monday.
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