I had a great day today :)
I was in class when the guy who sits next to sniffed me and at first I was like "What the hell!" but quickly it changed to "Do I smell!?" No, no I didnt. He said I smelled good :) That made my confidence level go WAY up. No one could get to me after that. None of the bullies I've had to deal with could get to me! It felt amazing to actually accept myself. Then, as I was working on my project a guy came up to me, touch my head and whispered, "Your so beautiful" and smiled. Of course, Im thinking the same thing most people would, WHAT!? Is he lying? I will never know, but it was the sweetest thing ever and I am still in a good mood from it :)
Tomorrow is an early release day so I'll be home at 1pm :)
Tomorrow I am also told to write love on my arm, so I will!
Coach Baldwin made me mad today. He always yells at us (algebra class) while he teaches. I cant learn like that. But Im gonna stay in his class because I'm tired of giving a damn when no one else does. Well, one person does, and she is being paid. My councilor, Martha. I told my mom that she had to talk to Coach Baldwin before I could get out of the class, of course she didnt. So I just give up on caring. Its like totally not worth the pain of me thinking my mom doesnt care about me. Im done with depression, I provoke it anyway. So, Im done, Im done, Im done, with provoking depression, sadness, and thoughts of suicide. Im just done! I understand Ill get upset in my life but it should never come to suicide. :)
World Geography is getting really good! We are talking about the Cold War, Hitler, World War 1 & 2, and its really interesting. Like seriously, no joke. I can't wait for Thursday, well scratch that, let it come at its normal pace because I dont want Wednesday to end. (getting out of school early is like a holiday around here)
Well please keep my friends in your prayers (if you pray). God knows which ones need his help right now.
Well everybody who is reading this, remember, don't give up on life. Life is suppose to be fun, free, magical, and happy. But YOU have to make it happen. If you cant make it happen by yourself, I'll help. I've been through a lot of stuff I don't talk about. With my experience with life, I sincerely think I can help you. (Unless of course your a terrorist who wants to kill me, see that just isnt cool with me.)
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